Let's be Real for a Change

hmmmm wow. I haven't done this in a while. I wonder If anybody reads my posts anymore. I hope not. hahah. okays sooo a lot has changed. I feel thankful that I still believe there is a God and that I still have a conscience despite everything I've been through. I think at this moment in my life God is trying to teach me something I won't forget for the rest of my life. I feel like he's letting me partake of the world and hopefully I'll come out of it relying on Him more. Through all my experiences in this first year of college he has not forgotten about me. I feel like he is always watching over my shoulder not letting anything get too out of control. It's funny cause everything I wanted came to me by this summer. A girlfriend, girls liking me, partying, yet I find that the world is so empty. I find the world so bland and repetitive. Partying is so lame to me to be honest. Maybe it's cause I don't enjoy drinking. I just don't find how anybody could be satisfied with just the world. If I can be real with myself, these last few months have been the emptiest moments of my life. So today I talked to my new friend Ashley. We talked about honesty and how it is really rare to find in the world. We also talked about our appreciation for art and history. Although I don't think I am attracted to her at all, I definitely think I found another genuine friend from UCI. I think we will be close friends who can tell each other anything in the future. I have a feeling we will encourage each other to stop backsliding. Thank you God.